10:55 a.m. - 03.09.2004
fog
i should, should, should be doing so many other things right now but i woke up in a fog and it's still not cleared. in fact, i think it's taken over my brain today. the long, hot shower did nothing to help with the clearage.
i spent all of sunday, from the wake up call to the good nights at 1:00 am, with boy. breakfast, plays, dinner, bob dylan, sopranos/curb your enthusiasm, much mockery and laughing all day. it was, all and all, a pretty perfect day. but i'm still waiting for something (and no, it's not THAT but something else, i can't explain).
my horoscope (horrorscope) keeps telling me "THIS IS THE TIME" and "DON'T LIVE IN THE PAST" but i'm not sure this is the time. maybe i'll get a sign when it IS time? and i'm not living in the past, i've made peace with it. how the hell can you live in the past anyway? it's just not scientifically possible. duh. the past may have disappeared again, for all i can tell.
i want nothing more at this moment then to go back to sleep and wake up clear. but i just know this is one of those days i'll have to sleep walk through.
today: a class i'm totally not prepared for, then tonight: the marijuana-logues complete with special brownies.
