12:48 p.m. - 02.03.2004
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A familair heaviness is settling into me. It's something that I don't want. It's a routine, a downward fall. But I'm going to fight it. I'm going to turn off the TV, sign off the computer and ignore the phone. I need to re-ground myself and keep the glorious stripped down feeling I've been cultivating and loving. I almost stumbled into something bad last night but I came out on top.
I need to keep the healing, the open-ness inside me. I'm not sure where I'm headed but it's upward. Whatever I get is what I bring to myself. It's what I asked for.
i am willing to change...i am willing to change...i am willing to change...
