5:08 p.m. - 12.30.2003
My Vag is Worth More Than a Percentage Point
Things are in flux. I'm now the sickest I've been throughout this whole thing and you don't want to hear about it because it's gross. Blood, skin, etc.
I was supposed to be done with treatment on Friday but since I refuse to do the brachytherapy the doctor wants me to do he has now extended my "regular" treatment to next week. Not the news I was looking for when I had to see him on Monday. But at least I stood my ground and refused the internal radiation treatment (brachytherapy) they wanted to do. It would have involved putting implants in my who-ha that could have really, really bad side effects such as permanently shrinking my vag, permanently stopping all moisture from ever returning, etc.
I decided my vagina was worth more than the one lousy percentage point my recurrence rate would have been lessened by the internal radiation. I'm already having enough problems down there. It fucking HURTS. I'm not going to put the little lady through anymore at this point. I think if I do she will go on strike indefinitely and never work properly again and that would KILL me. Enough about my vagina now. I have to go lay down.
